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Friday 23 December 2011

Alhamdullillah....I am really thankful

Semalam adalah hari yang penuh debaran bagi ku dan anak2.Mana taknya, anak bongsuku menanti keputusan PMR-nya.
Bagai nak rak jiwa ngan raga aku, dari pagi sampai ke tengah-hari menanti cikgu membawa keputusan yang x sampai-sampai.Kepala otak aku asyik pening je, darah berderau dan rasa nak menangis pun ada, ni sape yang sebenarnya nak ambik keputusan aku ke anak bongsuku, Ain...hahaha
Genap jam 12:30pm cikgu2 semua tiba di dewan, biasalah ye, ada je ucapan mengenai pencapaian anak2 murid, selepas tu cikgu pun memulakan upacara memanggil pelajar2 yang mendapat Straight A's(8A), jumlahnya 28 pelajar and anakku bukanlah diantaranya so biasalah sedih gak aku tp nak buat mcm eh, dia dh cuba sedaya  upaya...aku agak mungkin dia capai sama seperti kakak2nya iaitu 5A, so tgh aku nie sibuk2 tgk budak2 nie naik pentas, adalah satu manusia nie yg sibuk sgt berdiri depan aku, badanlah mcm badak sumbu, baunya pulak....amak ai sampai nak muntah aku so aku pun keluarlah dewan...x tahan...wekkkkk...
So aku teruslah lepak kat pondok luar dewan sekolah, aku dengar gak, cikgu sebut'pihak kami juga ucapkan tahniah kepada pelajar2 yang mendapat 7A..then suara tu sebutlah nama pelajar2....kejap perlahan-kejap kuat yang aku nie lak leka tgk budak2 yang menangis mungkin sedih sgt, yelah keputusan yang diharapkan mungkin x kesampaian...
Tiba-tiba lak aku dengar anak aku, Ayie menjerit and aku nampak Ain menangis dan sejambak bunga ditangannya ...'Mama, Ain dpt 7A lah" tulah kata dari mulut kakak Ayie dia...tersentap aku kat situ.Ain terus berlari kat aku, "Mama pegi mana?Cikgu tanya tau, mak mana?cari2 mama x ada nak ajak ikut naik pentas tau"....lah terlepas aku nak kepoh, tulah manusia badak tu td punya pasallah nie, apa2pun x kisahlah, KEGEMBIRAAN AKU TERSERLAH!!!!
Alhamdullillah, apa yang aku doakan dan harapkan anak aku telah jadikan kenyataan.Hilang semua rasa resah dan sedih.Hilang segala penat dan lelah, hilang segala kesakitan yang selama nie.
Sekarang nie aku x kisah apa org nak kata pasal aku, nak mengumpat pasal aku, nak menghina aku...sbb aku   bersyukur kerana Allah beri aku kekuatan menjadi seorg IBU dan x ada sape2 pun yang boleh memisahkan aku dgn anak2 aku sbb aku IBU mereka, dan aku yang lahirkan mereka....and rasanya x salahkan kalau aku BANGGA menjadi IBU kepada anak2ku.
TAHNIAH, AIN!!!!MAMA LOVE SO MUCH AND THANKS FOR ALL YOUR HARDWORK!!!!MOGA ALLAH AKAN SENTIASA MELINDUNGI YOU AND MEMBANTU YOU DALAM APA JUA YANG YOU LAKUKAN AND MAMA WILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU...xoxo MY WORLD...MY LIFE
PMR - 7A's

Thursday 8 December 2011

Indahnya Cinta Tak Bersyarat


Indahnya Cinta Tak Bersyarat   By: M. Agus Syafii   Cinta seorang istri kepada keluarga adalah cinta yang tak bersyarat. Cinta tak bersyarat, kukuh dan kuat, tak lekang oleh waktu. Suatu saat cinta itu berubah, apabila suami khilaf maka cintanya mampu membawa kembali kepada keluarganya. ..
Di dalam hidup sering kali kita ingin dicintai oleh orang lain, pasangan hidup kita, saudara, kerabat, teman sepejabat,  dan juga tetangga dimana kita tinggal. Rasulullah memberikan satu tip agar kita dicintai oleh orang lain sebagaimana Sabda beliau, "Kalian disenangi oleh manusia bukan karena harta kalian melainkan karena wajah yang ceria dan akhlak yang mulia." (HR. al-Baazar)

Wajah yang ceria dan akhlak yang mulia itulah kunci agar kita dicintai oleh orang lain bahkan juga oleh Allah dan RasulNya. Pernah Nabi Muhamad ditanya, 'Ya Rasululullah, siapakah hamba yang paling dicintai oleh Allah?' Beliau menjawab, 'Yang paling baik akhlaknya.' (HR. al-Tirmidzi). Dan Nabi juga bersabda, 'Orang yang paling aku cintai dan paling dekat denganku dihari kiamat adalah orang yang paling baik akhlaknya.' (HR. al-Tirmidzi).

Jadi, kuncinya agar kita dicintai adalah wajah yang ceria dan akhlak yang mulia

Wednesday 7 December 2011

Just A woman

Aku wanita punya hati nurani
Yang tak dapat dibohongi
Pabila cinta tlah membutakan mata
Dan membuat tuli telinga
Apakah salah jika aku menyinta
Apakah salah jika engkau ternyata
Pilihan hati
Belahan jiwaku ini
Cintaku ini anugerah terindah
Dari yang maha kuasa
Cintaku padamu tak pernah berubah
Meskipun kita berbeza
Apakah salah jika aku menyinta
Apakah salah jika engkau ternyata
Pilihan hati
Belahan jiwaku ini..
(Korus)
Aku wanita aku kaum hawa
Yang memang rapuh hatinya
Aku wanita aku punya cinta
Selayaknya manusia
(Korus II)
Apakah salah jika aku menyinta
Apakah salah jika engkau ternyata
Pilihan hati
Belahan jiwaku ini..
(Ulang Korus I)
(Ulang Korus II)
aaa… Ku wanita
aaa… Ku wanita….
Yang hanya perlu kau fahami
(Ulang Korus) (2x)
Oh apakah salah jika aku menyinta
Apakah salah jika engkau ternyata
Pilihan hati
Belahan jiwaku ini..
Wanita… woohoo..
Ku Wanita… ooo…
Wanita

Aku Wanita Biasa


Aku ini wanita biasa
Bisa sakit luka karena cinta
Dingin sepi kerap menyapa
Air mata jatuh lukisan raga

Kadang ku kuat setegar karang
Kadang ku rapuh lemah liar merana

[chorus1]
Maafkan aku bila hasratku keliru
Sulut gairah jiwamu
Ku yang dosakan cinta kekasih

Maafkan aku bila hasratku keliru
Sulut gairah jiwamu
Ku yang dosakan cinta kekasih hatiku

Kekasih hatiku maafkan aku
Aku wanita biasa

Dingin sepi kerap menyapa
Air mata jatuh lukisan raga

Kadang ku kuat setegar karang
Kadang ku rapuh lemah liar merana

[chorus2]
Maafkan aku bila hasratku keliru
Sulut gairah jiwamu
Ku yang dosakan cinta kekasih

Maafkan aku bila hasratku keliru
Sulut gairah jiwamu
Ku yang dosakan cinta kekasih
Hatiku… maafkan aku..

Monday 5 December 2011

Just move on....

Was surprise yesterday, coz amazingly my mum came by my house. Its been quite awhile since my mum talk to me coz  of some misunderstanding between us but I guess its a MUM intuition and can sense something is wrong with her baby...lolz Incredible isn't it. She asked why didn't I tell ? Well can't lie about it now, just told her the truth...It started about a silly luggage bag and all hell broke loose, when he started saying harsh words and yelling, so should I just stand there and listen, and pretend I'm deaf or something, with his arrogant, egoistic and gangster manner, well even my mum knows how her son-in-law is, can't blame her saying whats on her mind..when your child is hurt she'll be  feeling the pain too, and thats why mums are special, she's always there when you need her but like wise I don't like family involvement around my marriage life coz its bad so I just say, let it be mum, he just doesn't want me anymore and he left me so just have to let it go...whatever words he has spoken are still intact on my mind and even my kids heard what he said...so what is said has been said, and his reaction by going back out with his ex-Thailand gf has say it all too..so should I be distraught and kill myself...don't think so.
Life is about ups and downs, there were time when I was up there happy and cheerful and now I'm just having a downside but it won't be long coz I have lots of other people around me, who are supporting, encouraging and loving me as I am...
Its call LIFE, and we should be ready to for what to comes and take it easy, a step at a time when problems occur.This is the 2nd time, that someone I really love made fun of my life, but lucky me coz I still have my common sense intact....lolz.Its really hard being a woman isn't it?, but thats what made us special coz we are more stronger than most men are..
Love myself and love my life..
What goes around eventually will come around...
And Allah will always be there for me, to give me the strength to live my LIFE...

A Thousand Years.....

Just wondering whats happening in my life..I'm seem a little bit lost today, and I think it will be lost forever. Got a bad news today, it really hurts but I'm fine coz there's no point having a heart break now and I know how I feel about it.Even if he doesn't know and doesn't want to know, its ok coz I  know my feeling...and I will always love him no matter what or wherever he is...Just have to deal that  he doesn't love me anymore and I'm just not good enough for him....

Saturday 3 December 2011

Just need to be STRONG

Well, I guess theres no need for me to hide it anymore.My marriage lasted for 2 years only.What can I say..I didn't want it to happen but he did.The only words thats going through my mind is this words that came out from his mouth 'Who do you thing you are?'My answer 'Your Wfie' and he said 'I don't want you as my wife'...well he did married me 2 years ago and during that time he said "yes, you are going to be my wife forever' and now...I just don't get it.
It was only a small argument about a silly luggage bag and hell break loose.He doesn't seems to care about the words coming out of his mouth about a silly bag.And the arrogance, the ego, the selfisness just show off and to day he just made it worst by moving out in the middle of the night.And the only thing I wanna him to do was stay out for the night, coz its hurting me with his rudeness and not acting like human being.And what he do, he call off his buddies and brothers saying that I shove him off.My goodness how bad do I look and hell  break loose on me too..And the pain I have to bear,.Who started the fight anyway?For sure, I have witness around, it was not, me.He just can't control his temper, his ego, and arrongant.
Now I just need to stay strong, need to go through all over again the ordeal of pain and its going to take a few more yaers to forget what had happen yesterday night and tonight.Feeling like I've been played off all this while, all the love seems unappreciated and wasted and the pain, damn it hurts so much.
I guess I'm just not good enough for him so I just have to let it go and let time heal for what have happened..I know what they are thinking now but do they hear my side of the story...NOPE, no one knows accept the ones who has been living with him for the past 2 years.....
Well, I guess I just have to accept the negative thoughts of people now coz noone knows what I'm feeling now...